Usually I approach IWSG day (see below if you aren't familiar with what that is) with an attitude of focusing on what I am NOT insecure about. Today is a little different.
I edited my manuscript that I've been working on forever on the advice of a professor. I took out some quirks that made the characters sound like real people. Now I can't hear the first person voice of one of my characters in my head. Or maybe it has nothing to do with the revisions, and I've just lost her voice (which is terrifying).
I have come to the conclusion that my masters (is that hyphenated? - oh, whatever, I'm late to the party and will leave it as is - correct it in your minds if I'm wrong) degree program isn't meeting my needs. And they've changed the program in a way that makes it less competitive - less likely to help students get into MFA and PhD programs. I know it's a little nutty to be thinking about getting a PhD at my age - mid-late forties, not that old - but I like being challenged, and it would be fun to make my ex-husband call me Dr. Reynolds. It's all for him, really. But I need to abort the program. It's time. I think I will find another, but will give it a year.
On the up side, I got into a competitive writer's conference this summer - one just for novels. Very exciting! And my critique partner got in too. I think the conference will help us both with our own work and will also help us help each other even better than we do now.
What's your insecurity?
BTW, I need to finish my posts for the Techniques in Appalachian fiction class. I am going to write several today and will post them over the next two weeks.
This post is part of the Insecure Writer's Support Group, brought to you by Alex J Cavanaugh and a troupe of minions who are helping him because there are so many of us.