As I'm sure you all know, it's NaNoWriMo time. I have the participant badge on my sidebar. I don't believe in writing a pile of words just to achieve a word count, but I do like the motivation it gives me to push myself farther than I normally would. I should be writing furiously. But I'm not.
The problem is I got a migraine yesterday. If you don't have migraines, you might not know it's not just a headache - it's a headache with an "aura" effect. Plainly put, it's like a laser light show in your eyes that stays with you even when your eyes are shut. Sometimes it's a very annoying kaleidoscope in my left eye.
For me, any attempt to look at a computer screen or focus my eyes on small things like words on a page makes the pain portion of the thing worse in intensity and duration. The only thing to do is to lay down in a dark, quiet place for 24 hours, sometimes more.
I approached this month with some optimism that the migraines wouldn't set me back much on my writing goals - my doctor gave me some samples of medications he said would probably work really well. They did. And I couldn't stay awake. I slept most of the day yesterday and also through the night from just one pill yesterday morning.
The odd thing is that I feel fine, but my Muse is still asleep, hopefully not dead completely.
I can function - by that I mean I can do dishes and vacuum and do stay-at-home-motherly things. But it's pretty clear to me I'm not going to be able to write fiction this morning.
I will take the opportunity to fully feel this strange, completely uncreative feeling I'm overcome with and use it for good. I tend to write about people with mental illness, and my current WIP is no exception - I think my MC will feel this way, but with more intensity after a traumatic event happens to her. The thing that makes her her will go into a coma and she won't know who she is anymore.
It's too risky to read a computer screen today - I'm starting to have a little bit of trouble focusing my eyes on what I'm typing. I'll catch up on your posts later in the week.