I feel like I've reached a strange turning point. I am at the point where I can see the completion of two of my novels. I know I will finish them and that they will be polished by the end of the calendar year.
I accept my predilection for short novels and novellas - both writing and reading them. I move forward with perhaps just under or just over 50K words. I am unapologetic about it. I can think of no novel I love more than 'The Great Gatsby.' I can't count the number of times I've read it. It's under 50K words.
After reading your comments and blog posts about getting published, I accept the fact that I will need to work hard to market my work and perhaps change my internet presence a little, maybe a lot, before I publish even a short story. The cool thing is that I can see the path I need to take, and it actually sounds like it could be fun.
The tricky part I think is transitioning to the pseudonym I plan to use. My stories are not my life stories, but I admit some of my characters and plot points have at least a seed of truth from my real life. I don't like the spotlight on me - I never have. So I don't mind publishing my work without anyone knowing it's me. I don't need validation from my family. I was extremely successful in my first career and don't need to prove anything to anyone with my second one, writing. How lucky am I to be able to change careers at 40 and go for the kind of success I really wanted?
The project manager inside of me that worked very hard for the last twenty years is busy planning the route I will take - Twitter, Facebook, a new web site, book covers, etc. Luckily my daughter is fabulously artistic and can give some input on the visuals. And although I have lost my programming skills over the last 5 years, I can probably throw together a web site that doesn't look like I did it myself.
The tiny light in the far distance is much closer now. I can see more than just a glimmer of light this morning. I can see the horizon in the distance just enough to be excited about it.
Thanks to all of you who have pushed me along and shared your experiences - especially my writing partner who detailed through forty pages with me last night.